well ytd dining etiquette was fun , the thing that kept everybody on cloud nine .and know i know hw hard eating can be for the western culture.i love new park's hotel butter, its super yummy yummy :p

after dining ,met sean went esplanade , finidng the roof terrace was real tiring , eventually my whole body hurts, especially my legs.i still lyk the esplanade scenery the most ,its keeps ur mind flexi.i reached home ard 9 plus

thanks for the flowers, yuru, sean & yiyuan.
while shopping for my dining ediquette clothes halfway , bro called and said grandma passed away.
i was kinda stunned but i could still continue my shopping :? somehow maybe there's no space for all these, too many giants; too many choices to make.my heart feels no distress, how could it be ?

the last time i saw my grandma was on the chair and i guess it was the last time i ever saw her , the very last recall.hw come things happen so sudden , wasnt she fine before & then there she goes.& she told dad she was going to die before choking on the bread and she dint even struggle on when she was choked.i dont know whether i should be going for dining , i better go off nw .
good night.


life is so uncertain
i am bloggin here for ytd .. went churching with hui jun & sean. i felt God's presence ,He made me feel peaceful after i step out of service :) and i am glad i went for servie thou.as usual we were late , and we still dont knwo that bro's name luh,lols. anyway went for FUEL, and learnt more about time management , and guess what? i went to plan a timetable ytd night after i got home.

then it was searching for the missing girl hui jun.

Gotta pick myself up where do I start
a long and tiring day it has being .my body's starting to itch from the burn , and seriously i need something to tie up my hands , frowns .anyway was with sean all the while ,was suppose to meet george and acc her for facial treatment but her hp no batt. what luck man ,in the end i had kfc for lunch.my appetite being kinda weak lately , feeling hungry yet eating lil.

after that , i went sun plaza for awhile before actually meeting hui jun at sembawang mart.recently so much has happen, i was to comfort hui jun but well i guess i shouldskip this.i can predict my hp being confiscated next wk , i better get ready a new sim card.i gotta get outta here.

if what you told me stands,
maybe it shall end .


the most productive tan today :) yes i am burn but i dont really mind.although there is only , yiyuan , sean ,georgina & hui jun it was fun ,volleyball was fabulous.not to say we took lots of photos.we went far east after that to look for fishball 's sunglasses which he did get in the end = partially my fault.and my mum dont wanna loan me moeny, i shall wear just something simple then.

look at the first photo , selfish behaviour , some ppl cut me off from the photo.lols
and there are more pics which haven being updated yet.


the sun is calling my name .
my chem and physics paper is down , finally can get it out of my head.i am more then excited to complete my last prelim paper tml :D so tml is my tanning day whuhoooo :)) anyway went j8 with yiyuan,gladys,wan xian and georgina ..had my eyebrows trimmed , and introduced to some beauty treatment which i agree readily . facial treatment on fri ? lols georgina some place u suggest huh.
the same old thing, gonna go study now , grumbles*

some eyebags ;
so heavy
maths was tough :| and dint really have time to finish 2 sums , tsk. bishan cc with georgina after exams .oh & everything keeps dropping down , what butter fingers we have..lols.and yes guess what everyone i bought my lacy black shoes :D hehs finally finally FINALLLY !!
and now i am going to study my geo and poa. tatas :)
well had geo remedial today, miss lim is a nice teacher ,her actions shows right way :) saw my black lacy shoes at bishan ,it lit up my face immdiately man :D i almost gave up hope,okays gonna get it next wk. actually was to study at bishan cc with sean but because space constraint.so studied with sean & cherryn and guys after that at sun plaza.had quite a fun time althou did not studied much.

someday i think of which direction my heart is at ,
but neverless to say it never answers truthfully .
it never feels how it should be.
i just finished my maths tution work ,like 15 mins ago i am on with my social studies revising again.with my plate of cold rice beside me , i thought this stupid swan lake classical music would calm my mind sp that the social studies will get into my head. & NO it din't arrghs , brought me into my ballet world ,it just make me think of ballet :(

chalky graceful picture :)
man- stab me from behind ,let me have a rest.
a little more sad ,to make it worse.
to feel better, i lit a smile,
i sing to myself.
when all the guilt i feel so true ,
when all the sorry goes nowhere.
all this while you were here,
you waited long enough .
who can compare ?

but ,
dont want to be reminded ,
just not yet.

the old me would be more happier then the now me .

My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with 

one whole day of studying so worn out , i wanna get really good grades.i think i might only achieve only at n levels , that will be too late for show.--show the whole world , God made me with brains .& after my major exams , i will be my own key to open my locked cage .a lil flashback , to learn ballet again ? maybe its my all time dream , but how do i get through the difficult stages.where am i going to get a hell lot of money, a loan from my mum ? awws can i loan from the bank/? :(

i just got shouted by big bro , he wants me to off my msn .what is this ? its only 10 mins of usage .


please be my escape.

yawns* finally i finished editing my friendster profile skin.took me 2 long hours to find a suitable photo. i should be studying anyway, who knows what got into me .

here have a look if u are free :) friendster profile
some quiz :D

Have you..
[x] Held hands
[x] Lost someone
[x] Never got a chance to tell someone something
important
[x] Cried your eyes out
[x] Danced
total: 5

[x] Rejected someone
[ ] Been rejected
[ ] Wanted to kill someone
[x] Got called a ......../..........
[x] Heard a rumor about yourself
[x] Hurt someone
total: 5

[x] Got involved in sports
[ ] Got called a dork[ well,it was actually a nerd]
[x] Fell out of love
[x] Went to a funeral
[ ] Knew someone who has commited suicide
total: 3

[x] Grades dropped since you were 10
[x] Wrote a love poem
[x] Went through a phase
[x] Got ditched
[x] Know someone really stupid and/or annoying
total: 5 (omg am i supposed to get all right ?)

[x] Drank
[x] Made a mistake
[ ] Found the one
[x] Thought you found the one
[ ] Cheated on your bf/gf
total: 3

[x] Found out your bf/gf cheated
[x] Was lied to
[x] Felt like the happiest person in the world
[x] Felt like dying
[ ] Got pregnant/your girl pregnant
total: 4

Now times by 4 this is how much of a teenager
you are yes i am 100%
my eyes burn now ,i think its the contact lens .i just noticed that i haven't been blogging for the past few days ,i dont have any feel to blog today to actually.
except for my prelims chinese exam which was tough.nothing else to blog. i just feel lazy today?
my handpalm feels 'sour' and sorta aching .
maybe i am hinting to not blog today :|
erm. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE :0) ?

the time now is 10.10 pm , well so tired ._. just now went studying with cherryn ,ah bu and pram ?anyway i bought a pin for myself and finally my contact lens lotion .maybe it isnt too late to treat my eyes a lil' bit better .

to know that i spent 15 mins just typing this :D lols
i spent my whole morning at yishun before leaving for the airport for breakfast =_= ||| along with wen kwang and rong guang.Its being sometime since i realised how big aeroplanes are ,so real GIGANTIC .

i spent my night watching fireworks alone , cant contact georgina and sean they all.Anyway maybe it's nicer watching alone , when you can feel and concentrate on fireworks, the feeling like landing on you,so realistic :) after like half an hour after the fireworks i manage to contact sean and shawn fang.well we went clarke ,some "CAFE IGUANA" and then we ended up drinking bottle of BACARDI by the river. LOLS manage to catch the last train home.


i always visualize you ,trust
when when you weren't there.
i dont know whether tml i should be coming to school, it's just a few hours anyway and it will be a tick in attendance,so i guess why not? but i reaally dont have the mood for school these, i 'll be either silent in school or that everybody seems so robotic.

great God just set me beside a sea of blue with ever stopping breeze.i guess thats what i really need now .. 2000 miles down a dead end.


Let me let go - FAITH HILL playing just silently
OMG .. ever ages ago since i slept so much.i slept till 12 today maybe i forced myself to sleep and just kept sleeping. i dont know but i still have the urge to go lie on the bed.yawns .. i'm gonna be stuck/STUCK at home for the whole day..darn it.

what a weird dream i had nw, i dont even know is it my own imagination plus a lil dreaming. anyway si just feel like singing along with the tune now and after that i better get revising my work.


You pick your words so carefully
you hate to think you are hurting me
so moodless now..i feel so blank , so dead ,dead tired . one whole day of walking, thank God my leg dint collapse.ok i giving up on my million-dollar-smile dress , the black one still will make me smile anyways.'Just for laughs' scheduled at far east toilet today,the george and me's scenerio in the toilet with my black liquid eyeliner and a mascara .PRODUCTION= laughter visited yiyuan at TAKA , someone' s working credit card thingy.after that elgin came,went to look for tracy ,helped jie run kitchen awhile, say wrap food.

i rememeber buying a shirt after i met cherryn ,wendy & fren.
another repeat of yesterday.
tiredness just a slap away from my face .

there 's a distance between you and I

haven't had a look in the mirror yet , i bet i have puffy eyes along with eyebags.& maybe its the turning point where i am not gonna sleep so late anymore.i dont get anything back for sleeping so late do i ,a phone call ? uh uh no more.. & somebody tell me it isnt worth.

i better go do some revision now and play a good girl role before i think of being trapped inside my house.cya guys ltr..
L-o-o-k !! its friday again ,rolling over the bed but not even getting a short nap , ok somebody tell me 5 mins is long pls.cant believe i cant get to sleep after all the dozing in school .the one day when i dont need to pull myself to get to school.some teacher give us lollipops ,so nice of her :) & imagine me eating 3 lollipops , and i can feel decay shooting me down soon if this continues..

the final episode of 'LOVE AT 0 degrees' was yixin with wei xiang :D which was what i wanted the ending to be..lalalas.. and i am having a splitting headache nw almost continuous from noon..
and here i submit my entry.

guess what its almost 12 . lols

please give me a reason for standing still /
slaps forehead*
anyways today i skipped detention and went out with heidi they all , ate pastamania & took neoprints , since sec 2 .. guess was the last time the 6 of us took neoprint together.

YES YES , bills to pay & feeing so broke isnt the way to start off , how ever to get my skirt ,to pay my bills, to live a lil' better.i better drop the idea of like asking my mum for $ for the dress, because i know it wont suceed, anyhow where did that idea came from ,all these yrs ...ohhhhhs probably desperation , uh huhs -

been listening to this nothing's gonna change my love for you song for like number of days , anyway i bet the guy who wrote this song is damn romantic luh :)

and maybe i forsee a gloomy one.
my fed up o'meter is surely going high these few days .. see F-E-D U-P !! .
& here 's the list :
endless detention .
endless trouble.
irresponsibility.
& not forgetting DOTA.

RARRWS.

& then i so hope that my braces can be taken off , maybe not loving my braces that much after all , for those tight pressure on my teeth..urghhs and then ok i was late today, my fren let me off sia :) thanks to u .

only thing that i am glad was i pass my POA mock exam 66 :) damn happy,its the first time i think i passed POA this yr.and other then this ,

guess my entry will end here today , i'll be playing prime suspects now.


Sittin home alone waitin by the phone
Oh no, not me.