happy day

:) yesterday i really enjoyed myself last night at sem beach.Thanks to ALL who came to make my celebration happen ,

Xiu Ling , Zoe , Rui Ming , Siew Hui , Rebecca ,Leonard.
Georgina,Emily,Hui Jun ,Vincent ,Cheun Leong ,Tracy , Anna , Ben.

I love the bag man this is one big surprise , i never could have thought that you guys got that for me , and many thanks to Xiu Ling for her three attempts to Beach Road :) touched* I like the necklance and earrings from Nick ,Anna ,Tracy and Cheun Leong.Thanks too!
I hope everyone enjoyed as much too :) sorry that there weren't any chicken wings and thanks to you guys for helping me transport the food over.And i know i made you guys waited damn long for me in my house.

PS.Xiu ling i really forget to bring my spectacles ,thanks for reminding me :\

Stayed till 3.30am before his brother came over to fetch us home , Hui Jun keep tricking me and Vincent and Georgina to play indian poker and obviously she was the one playing.If we had continued playing big 2 i would not have so much losses.But at least we had fun screaming and cursing the cards hahaha and i bet those people in the tent did not have any peaceful sleep at all.

there's one thing that i forgot to do , which was to take pictures with the yang gui fei and the other two man.Idiot idiot.

Anyway i got to go bathe and prepare ,maybe i should head to club tonight.

I like the red vast sky with a little cotton candy clouds from last night.
So many things ,so little time

Again i have no time to update my blog ,

so here's how i spend my past two days ,on Wednesday i went to Beach Road with Xiu Ling ,it took an hour + ride on 961 to the army market all because she insisted that she never go before.But i tell you she is one of the best idiot friend to talk with , and she's one of the friends
that i would die for all the stupid things we do .

In the end she told me orh~ ,she came here so many times before.I feel like screwing her head man :D but its okay cause i saw the black army bag that i wanted.I really really swear i want it !!

Thanks for stopping me Xl i can't help thinking about the bag and the scene of someone buying off the last bag right in front of me keeps reappearing :( i must go and get it next week.

Anyway i like the Chao Kway Tiao :) delicious.Then me and Xiu Ling shared a plate of hokkien mee together too ,don't know whether is the hunger or the person i share the food with, the food taste rather good :p

its okay don't need face red.Because it's the food that taste good :p

HAHAHAHHA



So Thursday i skipped school because i was late and not in the mood for VB , little did i know that i was suppose to be in Xiu Ling 's group .Rather disappointed ,if only i would not take my own sweet time and open those almost closing eyes a bit faster.

but i guess it's okay i spend a good day sleeping at his house while he played FM for the whole day.For once , i finally had some good sleep for so many hours a day :) i feel so energetic back then.
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After which went up to Amk met up with Yuru ,Li Tin and George for Pizza, had my eyebrow trimmed.

Now it look so slutty argggh , hate it when the person always trim it so thinly :(

Saw Kelvin and he called and ask me whether pizza smell nice ? And i had a big question mark on my head told me he saw George while walking pass , hahas.Anyway he can't make it tomorrow , we 'll just meet out another day with Emily and peeps then.

Went down to town with them so that they could look at their branded goods.I made a fool of myself with that stupid censor thing at Topshop.The stupid clothes with the tag not removed made me so not embarrased when the person ask me to walk in and out to make sure whether it was me .Thank God Georgina brought it to Amarni Jeans to help me remove it ,f not it would have happen in every single shop with security censor.

And by the time i think no hole big enough would be able to cover me :D anyway i had a fun time and i am starting to miss all my friends.
here's how it looks

New phone :)

Been a few days since i updated , well for a short update i got my new LG kf600 :) Super glad because it was the last one left and can you believe the stock just came few days back and i was glad i made up my mind although i wanted the secret label kf750 .

But its alright i think i like this phone anyway.

Sat down at the bench somewhere near toa payoh hub and chit chatted with Xiu Ling . We can talk about anything under the sun and its good but i think if anyone else heard our conversation,they will be shocked .Hahaha.Well i like the place ,i like the feeling ,it makes me relax. As if i can slow down the pace of life and watch life go by without seeing myself bustling in the scene itself.


i don't wish to be everything to everyone,but i would like to be something to someone.

Memorable wedding

reached home at 4.20am yesterday night , how tiring it was and how bumpy the whole free ride home in the old van felt.Even the seat that i sat on and continuously slipped off seems to be implying that it was someday soon gonna break down.

Through the whole wedding ,it makes me think of the day when i would be the one that is getting married.And whether he would be the one standing right beside me was a dilemma although he's always the only one that i insert into this bleak future no matter how many previous wedding dinners i had attended,ever since the day i met him.

Anyway ,this was one of the best memorable wedding dinner i ever served , located at the Intercontinental Hotel.The bride was a northern indian and the groom was a french man .And the wedding did not turn out like any wedding anyone could have imagine.The lights were made dim and shortly near the end ,it changed to a different environment.Imagine Zouk.

I felt so much like dancing with the music and almost breaking legs of mine.Not forgetting the whole tin of coffee that drenched me head over toe and the incoming messages from Xiu Ling that jammed up my inbox :D haha

Dj and jazz band and the enormous beautiful cake that doesn't look like one at all :D Me and Rebecca thought it was a prop and we were touching it like no one's business and i was damn glad that my itchy fingers were stopped because i had work to do.Lol

phase that caught my ears in the middle of the wedding:
Love isn't dazing into each other's eyes , it's dazing together in the same direction ,pretty nice huh :)

Labels: memorable

Lets weigh my laughter and food


Well had a nice dinner of steamboat with Rui Ming and gf,Rebecca and bf as well as Xiu Ling at bugis .Had a good laugh , too bad he wasn't free to join us .Anyway today left VB class after 2nd meeting, can't figure out the codes and was really not in the mood.

Actually i wanted to take a long bus ride to Beach Road and go scout for my black army backpack but we need to go down to clementi to fetch Rui Ming 's gf so we can't go that far.

so ...
in the end headed for CWP then me ,Xiu Ling,Rebecca and Rui Ming ate macdonalds and went to Woodlands library to slack .Racked up the whole library while trying to find the circuit to charge our laptops .Then i sat down to play Heroes and it reminds me that we hadn't play that game for quite some time together :\

Shortly later i played Prime suspect with Xiu Ling for awhile before i went downstairs to pick up some magazines to read . There's this really lovely page i saw which says 21 ways to say i love you.And i think i am motivated to do something this weekend for him.Lets use some bit of my creativity :)

Oh , and everytime my inbox goes full i am constantly reminded of Xiu Ling's voice telling me to delete away my messages :D and she tell me as if keeping the message will make it turn to gold,although no but still worth more than gold ,so i not going to delete, too bad :p

anyway today i guess i spend the $18 for a good gathering,although it's way too expensive for the little amount of food that i ate .Alright i am feeling sleepy now , got to have enough energy to start a new day :)
Xiu ling send me this cantonese song yesterday ,and i think it's really nice and she say it applies to me well ,anyway thanks :)Anyway we bought Rui Ming's present already and hope he like it.We walk around so many shops entertaining ourselves instead of putting 100% effort to look for his present.

know what ?

I am so poor now and i still can spend money to eat kfc so willingly , i think food is tempting me nowadays .

This is a short post because i need to study for my VB UT tomorrow.

gotta rush.

最好 有生一日都爱下去
但谁人 能将恋爱当做终生兴趣
生活 其实旨在找到个伴侣
面对现实 热恋很快变长流细水
可惜我 不智或侥倖
对火花天生敏感
不过 两只手拉得太紧
爱到过了界那对爱人
同时亦最易变成一对敌人
也许相爱很难
就难在其实双方各有各寄望
怎么办
要单恋都难
受太大的礼会内疚却也无力归还
也许不爱不难
但如未成佛升仙也会怕
爱情前途黯淡
爱不爱都难
未快乐先有责任给予对方面露欢颜
得到浪漫 又要有空间
得到定局 却怕去到终站
然后付出多得到少不介意豁达
又担心 有人看不过眼
可惜我 不智或侥倖
对火花天生敏感
不过 两只手拉得太紧
爱到过了界那对爱人
同时亦最易变成一对敌人
也许相爱很难
就难在其实双方各有各寄望
怎么办
要单恋都难
受太大的礼会内疚却也无力归还
也许不爱不难
但如未成佛升仙也会怕
爱情前途黯淡
爱不爱都难
未快乐先有责任给予对方面露欢颜
得到浪漫 又要有空间
得到定局 却怕去到终站
然后付出多得到少不介意豁达
又担心 有人看不过眼
无论热恋中失恋中
都永远记住第一戒
别要张开双眼

Had western food again at w6 ,this man always forget that i want my fries without salt and i always get my fries salted like i never have to eat sodium for the rest of the week.But anyway he's a natural ,he really humour me to a certain extent.

i need to slow down on eating , i told Xiu Ling that maybe i should time how fast eat and maybe i should make it 15 minutes next time and chew my food in a slow-mo motion :D
Headed for the library again , i love the library , maybe it's the sofa i forgot what we talked about and we kept laughing and we couldn't concentrate on doing our RJ.We had to stop giggling and concentrate like we couldn't hold ourselves to keep quiet for a minute.This Xiu Ling really keeps my facial muscles exercise man :D


She keeps reminding me of Rui Ming's present and the steamboat where we are having on thursday .I would do it okay ? even if it means putting my hands in my pocket and pouring out my coins :)

Aww.Actually i am seriously tired so i guess i should save more energy for tomorrow but before that i should go read up on VB.I think i am gonna flung today's science.

You wanna know more, more, more about me
Gotta know reverse psychology
I just came back from the library with Zoe ,Rebecca and Xiu Ling with 4 books and i finally found the "Message in a bottle " by Nicholas Sparks . Super fruitful :) super funny because we like swa koos ,thought that we need to register and activate our cards but actually it has already been activated.Alright thats about it few more minutes presentation gonna start.

one word, sleepy
one feeling ,bored.
My survival kit*

My legs are damn tired and i can see veins protruding out luckily i had my laptop with me ,and so here i am sitting at 681B staircase. I have knocked on more than a hundred doors and i think i have to spare some thought for my knuckles because only like 5 open up.I wonder if there's anyone in there because when i look into all the peep hole there 's light inside and obviously if they had been hiding behind the door and i am really tired and thirsty.
I was so motivated to have a $160 sales before i started out but the shilings in my pocket shows me just how pathetic i was, 14 bucks.

Anyway i just saw two little kids at the door and they keep calling me "jie jie" ,they were so adorable .Alright i should go return my goods now .

:( own brew concoction

I just came home from Pasir Ris , went to three chalet.First was Jonathan at downtown east , the other was George's family gathering at Aranda country club and last was one of his friends one at coastal sands.Three different places and each brought me a different feeling.

It's 4am now,I had to cab home in the end and there goes 28 dollars.Half of me cling on to the fact that he said he would send me home but the other half of me hated that he drank and must not drive.When i saw how much you were enjoying with your friends i felt happy but i was questioned with the same sadness at the same time.I don't think i ever saw him laugh like that when he's with me.Maybe i should try harder.

It suddenly struck me on whether i prefer to see him smile or laugh.Or which was more important?

You turn me cold when you always ignore the things i said, and then come talking to me like nothing happen .

Nothing now hurts me more then to see you smoke ,is it that every guy that serve NS will start smoking?I never like to hear that this is socalising.I never like to hear that you said you only smoke in camp.I never like to see you smoking where ever you are .Because precisely you are smoking everyday and i wonder how many more additional reasons i am going to hear.

I always heard you telling others that when you get back your IC after NS ,you would stop your smoking career.But i know this is not a situation of hitting the brakes and a just a halt .Eventually after each brake you still start accelerating again and if only smoking was so easy to quit .At this rate that you are going ,there would be no way of quitting at all.I don't think you ever felt for me especially when you light up the stick where i am in sight.

This wasn't the you i used to know , i still remembered the past where you would try to persuade me otherwise.I don't know but it seems so wrong now, sometimes i wish seeing wasn't believing .

I can see where i am going despite all these ,4 more hours and i would be on my way to your house despite feeling like a loser and when i can't seem to blame anyone but me.And i can't seem to have the right to be angry because you never seem even to be bothered.

I am feeling tipsy ,my body's burning my tongue is dehydrated and i can even smell my own alcohol .I feel my stomach concocting jim beam , chivas , vodlka ...

Sorry seems to be the last word i ever want to hear.
Why was today such a big different feeling from yesterday?


Every single day I think about how we came all this way
The sleepless nights and the tears i cried
Is it too late to make it right?

Labels: chalets

Only time,moments

I just went to update my heart and fill it with half the urge i have miss out for so many days.

Congrats on getting your jungle hat :)

We went to Chong pang for dinner , which was only him eating and i think i like to observe him like some insect in the lab while he's eating :D and he always drink coke which is bad for the bones :/

If i had the ability i will frame up every minute that went by,because i believe the same action will never be the same again.So here i am trying to recall everything that happen to the best of my ability :)

First thing he did was showed me his hands , and Omg there were so many many tiny mosquitoes bites and it looked really scary like some kind of disease.When i said it looked scary ,he could still laugh but still i held on to his hand ;)

Then he went on with everything that happen to him during his outfield , how he was to be treated like POW , and of course i remembered his id 158. Anyway i can feel how fun it sounds when he describe everything.Especially when he had to call himself a dickhead 5 times in front of the officer because he was caught laughing at someone else who had to call himself shit for 5 times.hahaha

Next I thought that i saw his eye contour surrounded with black eye circles because of inadequate sleep during his outfield but he told me it was camo cream .I guess i was more then happy to know that it wasn't dark rings.




And we bought one durian and went under Emily's block to eat :) and we couldn't open the other side so we tried digging it out.I can't explain with words how disgusting it might look to passer by but i really had fun laughing and when he keep pooping the whole seed into his mouth.And when i tell him not to , he keeps laughing and it make me more worried if he swallowed the whole seed , touch wood*

he's a stubborn taurus and it's impossible to hold him to the right way .



Shouldn't be selfish , although i miss you so do your family .Maybe i should just go to sleep not wait for him to come online.


Who can say where the road goes,
Where the day flows?
Only time

And who can say if your love grows,
As your heart chose?
Only time

Who can say why your heart sighs,
As your love flies?
Only time

And who can say why your heart cries,
When your love dies?
Only time

Who can say when the roads meet,
That love might be,
In your heart

And who can say when the day sleeps,
If the night keeps all your heart?
Night keeps all your heart...

Who can say if your love grows,
As your heart chose?
Only time

And who can say where the road goes,
Where the day flows?
Only time

Labels: 4 july 2008

Sing a song to the birthday boy

Lets wish Rui Ming a happy 18th birthday first :)
Din't manage to celebrate it today but me and Xiu Ling have said we will call others along and celebrate it for him next week.

Today Xiu Ling passed her theory test :) congrats to her , next will be the real ride man .

hurry up and get your license and then you can bring me out :) Anyway thanks for bringing the cup noodles today ,although it couldn't fill up my stomach hahas.In the end i had another 2 sandwich which makes up 4 bread and i still wasn't full.It did make me spend more money !! Since when did my appetite increase so tremendously and i feel as if i am burning a hole in my pocket nowadays.

Thank God today is Friday i couldn't imagine another day to go , i really need to have a break away from problem statements.
Today VB lesson was difficult, Mayuri wanted to leave even Dharma because first thing first , the template couldn't be opened and we were cluesless about the problem statement itself.I wanted to leave too but looking back at the UT1 that i was absent ,i was threaten enough not to leave.

And so we all stayed , and persevere but halfway through we were so stuck and Nadzhry i think was the one that went to search for the faciliators personal profile on the school website.We were like continuously laughing at the pictures while reading their short profile.Think about it , it was rather bad

Met up with George and Emily at causeway point , long time since i saw Emily finally she is free to meet .Xiu Ling accompanied me to wait and i ate the sweet and its not sour at all very sweet ,so wasted man Xiu Ling. Haha.

Then George wanted to eat pizza , resulting in me spending money again , luckily my pay is here.
I am happy that i have not touched craves ,i hope one day he will too.

I need to do financial planning like what Xiu Ling said.Okay next week i have to work Walls if i still cannot find any other jobs.
Listen to what your heart says:


Guess what i am eating dinner now again,hahas i am really starting to have a balanced three meals but it really requires me to burn my pocket at times.Besides going to Koufu today with Xiu Ling and Rui Qi and been constantly reminded to eat slower i still finished too quickly.And i think i had really began to eat really fast because he always eat so much and i had been trained to eat faster which resulted in me toping my friends Haha.

Anyway after listening to Rui Qi today , actually i don't really know what to tell her , because i see my past in her and she makes me really worried about her. I couldn't say that i am still childish or that i have matured ..

In the past i may have regretted my actions, but i guess i have never regretted loving him still.I could have felt my worst at times but he had also being the joy in my life.I couldn't be more happier now.I really hope she carefully chooses her choice and hopefully the right one because i can't determine what may happen but i guess i would just follow my heart.

Anyway got to go study for enterprise UT for tomorrow.



You looked inside my fantasies and made each one come true,
something no one else had ever found a way to do.
I've kept the mem'ries one by one, since you took me in;
and I know I'll never love this way again.

I know I'll never love this way again,
so I keep holdin' on before the good is gone.
I know I'll never love this way again,
hold on, hold on, hold on.


A fool will lose tomorrow reaching back for yesterday;
I won't turn my head in sorrow if you should go away.
I'll stand here and remember just how good it's been,
and I know I'll never love this way again.

I know I'll never love this way again,
so I keep holdin' on before the good is gone.
I know I'll never love this way again,
hold on, hold on, hold on.

I know I'll never love this way again,
so I keep holdin' on before the good is gone.
I know I'll never love this way again,
hold on, hold on.


Say yes , say no?



Got up quite early today and when i browse the Mind You Body newspaper i saw this Manchester United Card thing,and it made me think of him,i am sure he would be damn happy if he saw this ,here's the link href="http://www.aia.com.sg/AIA_SY_Roadshows.html">

I really want to know what to do to get the card,I think i will call up later.

note to self - prepare to pay your own bills and installments before doing anything else.

I had a dream last night , and i was really sad when i woke up because his lungs turn black from too much smoking and he still refuse to stop :( it makes me really sad.And for the previous night i dreamt that we were both shot at the ears and it was so real i felt as if i could feel the pain.I don't know why i am having this dreams lately and it don't really feel good.

I hope tonight i don't have anymore bad dreams.
Find me a job

Okay i did not go for work today , I asked Darren for the John Little job thing already ,i hope i am enable to find a flexible job this week.Andy had told me that his workplace needed people and i hope he can tell me more details tomorrow.

The reason i don't want to work Walls anymore is because i think it isn't really safe working alone in some ulu place and i he always ask me not to work that and i think he really meant well for me and i don't really want him to worry for me too.

Okay me and Xiu Ling went to W6 Koufu to eat after school ended , although it was really warm over there ,the food tasted great and i wondered why Rui Ming said the food isn't nice.The soup very tasty but Xiu Ling insist that it was salty .I had a big problem queuing up for food today , whenever i got my food , their food had already turn cold turn cold.And Xiu Ling say she need to bring microwave oven when she eat with me next time.Even at the Koufu don't know why I tell you guys i am giving up on the 1st floor western food because it doesn't taste as good as the Koufu one.they to such a long time to fry fillet-o-fish lol.

And one more thing !!

The koufu food damn cheap,a bowl of laksa $1.50 if i eat over there more often i would be able to lower my expenses :) (compare a $1.50 waffle to that)




nowadays i am having this visual image of myself :D haahaa
I must start saving on drinks first especially unhealthy drinks.

once i close my eyes tonight , there will just be 2 more days till i see him :)
Early

Just finish doing my ppt slides , today was the first time i managed to reach class so early ever since i first started school in RP lol, i am super motivated to reach school as early as possible for the many weeks to come.Despite tossing and turning in bed yesterday night and forcing myself to wake up .I kept thinking of him and i couldn't get to sleep at all and so many thoughts and i just can't sleep .I hate this feeling.

Now I am super bored , just gave up my waffle to Dharma instead , maybe i shouldn't eat that much now .

Still got to work Walls today , super reluctant but still have to do it .I wonder if there's any other job.