well blog , i 've got the urge to change my url again . let me think of another name first before changing.
I can spent all the time in the past thinking , but never finding a resolution for myself .All i can do is ponder over the past but today in the bus ride i finally thought it right through .And i guess this time i shall hold it firm down , no more light hearted give-in .

Having read so many blogs, I feel this world now so different.Everybody seems to be feeling so stressed so down , with so many problems. Is our lives too tormenting in this century, is something really wrong with this world ?

I gave now I'm wanting
Something in return
Today was suppose to meet georgina at bishan cc but ended up at orchard with tracy. All because of 3 files we became S-O-T-O-N-G-S of the day :D ,linked it up = i am the start of the cycle because i bought the wrong file for tracy, bites tongue* in the end for refund to get the other file.

Firstly we took a cab there and when we dont know we have arrived at Bras Basha centre,i could sense the driver's fed up feeling.Well and the 3 of us sat behind like idioits luh,the driver said" reached alr ,still dont want get down ar " ! well we thought that he was going to turn in but no ,that was the place to alight,omg and we laugh so hard after we get out .

We din't expect the centre so ulu to have a popular , some more a 4 storey high one ,lols. I dont' know why i suggested to take the lift when the staircase is just beside us and the popular was at the 2nd floor.We felt so stupid for just taking lift from 1st floor. LOL , and then we went into the customer service to know that the stationery section was on the fifth foor.We should have believed the person that there was a 4 storey high popular and we could have took the lift straight up instead of having walked the stairs for another 3 storeys.

On our way back we took the cab again, well and this time we all alighted but i forgot to take the change which tracy ask me to take before getting out .Lucky i remembered after george close the door behind me .

Ended studying at orchard , to say talking about ourselves more :) anyway glad georgina was there.After that went Heeren , where we bought same similar bags at fourskin.Took the mrt home with georgina ,i so wanted to sit down ,but the mrt was so packed.

When we reached ang mo kio , the train stopped at the middle platform that was when i told george about the empty train on the other side. i thought we would need to get out of the train for a change. I even told george how hard i or we would run to get a seat at the other side. & so preparing to run out when the door open , stepping out i turned around seeing only the 2 of us get out trying to get out and realising that teh train was a spoiled one , AHHHHHHHS , kiasu deserves embarassement man :D

that was my day , so blurred.
As usual my bills keep bursting ,cant seem to handle it no matter how hard i try . Anyways finally can rest for awhile , finished my ss and chinese paper,lucky diplomacy came out or else i will strangle myself.

Was supposed to go aljunied with wen kwang and rong guang but in the end went home, dont have the mood to go out. Just feel so aimless after the paper,well maybe i was tired.

today ends here..
Went to the creamatorium and watched the coffin being sent in .Grandmother 's funeral ends today, the last i seen of her bones and ashes.Her remains were placed beside grandpa 's one at old holland road.

My house feels so weird without grandma , she used to walked around every now and then , i could still imagine the shadow of her body that she casted whenever she's coming out of the corner ,now its so empty especially everytime i walked into my room all thats left is a walking stick.

The purpose of a funeral ,i felt from God is for us to realise the fragility of life , brings closer bonds & to always treasure the people around you.I guess i m gonna start doing this right now,i dont wanna regret when all's too late.

i am dead beat & too tired for other things.